You're so happy it breaks my heart

YI think it's because of the overwhelming emotions lately,

Overwhelming everything, I didn't update lately.

I might have lose a few readers but guess what,

I'm too tired, too tired to care about anything.

Well, almost everything.

I'm talking crap but I don't  really care.

Anyway, I've slimmed down even more.

I lost half an inch everywhere round (where you're suppose to lose; not those places where it's supposed to be big).

Thighs and waist are my biggest accomplishment.

Working on the shape now.

It's tiring to workout you know.

Some girls out there,

Won't you perhaps spend more time in cherishing your (given when born) slim body,

Get your fucking bimbo head out of your ass,

Wear nice clothes and make good useof your figure that others would most probably die for to be born with.

STOP, with the "oh I'm so fat, I must lose weight"

 It's not a cool or trendy thing to say that you're fat,

Some people really ARE bigger in places that ARE SUPPOSE TO BE SMALL.

Like my ONCE upon a time elephant thighs?

Okay, I tried to look for a photo of my VERY fat thighs but realize I was too afraid to face the reality and kindly did myself a favour- gotten rid of every dirty little photo with fats.

Okay besides the one on top, fat right. Yes. 

(Those who saw this post, please pretend you didn't, keep the good impression IF I had one before this. PLEASE don't stare at my thighs if you see me or something next time <they still aren't that lean>) 

Now, I remember I had plenty to tell you guys about, but I forgot them all.

That's me, on the car with nothing better to love, than myself.

Yup that's my dad. Any comments?

That's still me in love with none other than myself.

I had a lot of fun with Boly as usual today. We reminisced SOME of our childhood.

We also had some really fattening food - carlsjunior.

And Boly poured salt into her drink (no, I didn't tell her it was sugar and hadn't reassured her I'm right, no I really didn't)

Ah well, I'm always that intelligent anyway.(:

Had some "kills the hair and spoils the hair" hairspray today.

We have to "let our hair" down sometimes, don't we?

It's obvious if you see me in person, there's gold and green, but in the picture is just a mass of hair.

I have some words for YOU.

Some YOU. Some people.

Trust me you'll know when I'm speaking if you because you'll be guilty of my words.

To you, asshole, grow the hell up. You're a guy, not those girls and sometimes you need to act like one. Man the hell up if you are capable of it. Guys aren't suppose to pick on girls and speak to people with spite. Not only are you acting like a girl, you're acting like a kid. So you're disgracing your kind, gender and age alike. Lastly, please look at things clearly, you do not have what it takes to go against me so please look yourself up over again.you might think it's thrilling to express your dislike towards me through little petty actions, but it really just makes the already wearing of respect for you others have, to deteoriate even more.

Hey slut, I know that you're ALWAYS lying. I'm smarter than you and better than you in many ways so don't for one second think you will outsmart me. I know your sympathy is just that thin almost transparent layer of mask over that ugly face of yours. I know what lays beneath. He may be stupid enough to even toy with you, but I'm far from fooled by you. Two can play at a game bitch, we'll see who gets the last laugh.

Juz keeding. Maybe the last time I saw you, which was ages after it all ended, I couldn't seem to get any air into my lungs. But the next time, I would look away and breathe just fine. It's not because I realize you aren't worth it, or that feelings faded. It's just that I'm done with the easy tears, the seriously not so enjoyable nights, the feelings of betrayal, the jealousy, the mixed feelings, the struggle. Basically, the not letting go. If it's just that, then I give everyone that. I give myself my life, and I take control of everything again, and that includes my heart. Let go it had to be? Then let go it is. Goodbye, I've long ago seen the last of those tears for you. I have long ago slept with other worries that aren't in the least related to you. So go get that girl, I will get my man. Period, bye.

Phew, end of the post. Really sorry for those unpleasant words and really long rants. But that's about it, my life, my current messed situation. Bye to you guys too!

15 March 2014

Singapore