So many things, so little time

HEyLO. HOW LONG WAS IT. YEA. my dad found out that i had a blog so i had to stop blogging for awhile, because the things posted here is HIGHLY UNREADABLE by him. So well let's start my recount. Last week was a week of school holidays although i returned too school most of the days for lessons and some things i had to settle... But ofcourse, i wont let my life be THAT boring... (; it was filled with events. At the start of the week, it was bad luh, because of the incident with W.Y and YY? im so sorry guys :/ for the extremely unpleasant post. AS USUAL, im just weird ^^ forgive me my dearies :D okay back to how my week turned for the best <3 I went ou with BOLY again ARGHHHHHH!!!!!! ;D dont mistaken my scream, it was such a great day, thanks BOLY so much ahhh <3 i love youuuu, i went to her house too by the wayy... so let's go for a tour of my day's event that day...

At her house i finally met with her favourite soft toy- Jawsy
Sho kewt right

And then i went around exploring each and every corner of her room (;-----------> here goes...

Her art is sho gooood :/ sho pwetty right...

To all my dears and darlings!!!!
Kong
Chow
Boly
dreamatomy
<3

AND THEN BEFORE THAT WE WENT FOR SUCH A GREAT MEAL AT A RESTAURANT NAMED << Pepper's Lunch>>!! yet again, my friend knows soooo many good food, i wonder for so many years, what have i been eating?!

Salmon' Rice with cheese and ohmaigawd, sho delicious!!!!!

Ya so it was great fun with my lovely boly! Love her sho much... talked to her alot about my life too <3 thanks for being there (':

And then there's obviously more to come (; this is one heck of an interesting time... WELL, went on a "study" date with my dear E.C...  HAHA, why the study has inverted commas? because we, like one pair of naughty children, did not study as planned. whatever reason? I have no idea... BUT, it was fun^^ really fun although there's nothing much... But there's him, what else do i need? we talked, played abit... he read out loud for me a few passages (i insisted:P), and it was rather fun(; he started holding my hand while reading^^ THAT, was what i call studying ya? fun right? then i was really bored and lay my head on the table... he actually lightly stroked my face and said something i couldnt hear (WHY YOU NEVER SAY LOUDER). trust me, my face must have been hothothot! under his fingertips.... It's amazing how i remember the details so clearly huh? Then after that, we had a special bus ride, of which he insisted i sat with him, and ofcourse nice and kind me took the bus with him:D the bus ride was super special(; (E.C if you read this, you know what i mean). After that i was so happy^^

Me changing in the public toilet... to get rid of  evidence i was out on a date<3

                                                         there.... that's a good girl from school...

So that day was bestbestbestbest and so lovely!!! <3

Actually i still have stuffs to say but just incase my father sees this... BYEBYE. abrupt ending sorry dears!!  >< will make to ya all in the next post hopefully ><

 FEW photos of me

Dreamatomy gave me this pweddy top!<3

Photo i send to my dear E.C to ensure i was smiling^^

25 March 2013

Singapore

I was mistaken, it was just me.

Really, today was actually a perfect day until something ruin everything. until my heart was crushed and trampled on again. Until i cried, YET again. well, i had lessons at school even though it was a march school holiday here today. nonetheless, i was orinally very cheerful and in high spirits.

My lessons with my pretty chemistry teacher. My great mood then...

Boly eating lunch and her weird way of separating the bread and the meat of the burger before eating, i would be smiling if not for the crushed heart.

Boly's competition where she was to be a helper there...

competition held at our school's hall.

I actually was feeling very good and very happy after a workout, i was extremely tired and happily went to bathe. After that i was still so happy and waited for E.C to reach home.

My healthy meal that i had enjoyed eating until now where i feel like throwing up.

Wondering why am i like a crazy girl ranting and being so negative about everything AGAIN. let me tell you why, then you can laugh at me. And laugh at how stupid i was, and how naive i am, and how absolutely a failure i am. I said the girl, YY, was a failure and a trash, i realize im more of one.

How about taking a look at our cute couple?

So fucking adorable, always online together. and offline too.

Another very interesting set of photos

And YY told me she wasnt talking to him, probably extremely kind hearted her is afraid that pathetic me would be upset that awesome her manage to get the attention of my ex (W.Y)

Boly say it is just pure coincindence. stupid me actually wanted to believe. Let's see how coincidental can things get.

Thats today when the YY who says she doesnt speak to W.Y anymore. How coincidental. They HAD to be online and offline at the same time. Let's say today's just a day of coincidence. Well then let's see more of today's coincidences.

So? too destined to be together they had to be online AND offline at exactly the same time? probably i should tell them they were meant together since they were so in pile which each others lives. Right? i should right?

So? W.Y could just move on and forget all the times we had? the times which i THOUGHT was precious to us? BOTH of us? but now i know it's just trash to him. I thought somehow he wasnt speaking the truth about losing feelings for me when we broke, But ofcourse it was true, i was his entertainment no more. What could be better than an opportunity to dump me? Then Y.Y, i said she was a joker. Well i was, i was the one who stupidly believed the "you are my everything and i love you and we will last forever". I was the one. so who was the garbage here? me. Y.Y? why couldnt you just tell me you two were talking? so that i could still believe there's nothing between you two?! ya right, the pathetic one who havent let go of her ex has to be kept in the dark because she musnt be hurt anymore, or later she will go insane. RIGHT?! im the one crazy enough to love you, W.Y, then crazy enough to hurt myself and let you go because i wanted you to be happy. THEN, shameless enough to BEG you back, to ask you to give ME another CHANCE, then crazy enough to still love you, after you told me things like: "i'm fucking happy without you" WHO was the one who said he couldnt imagine life without me? Ofcourse, I was the idiot believing it. I was the bitch stupid enough to hope that maybe we could last forever despite already knowing all your lies?! I was the one who remembered every moment, every smile, every sulk you had. I was the one who willingly hide all my unhappiness so that you'll be happy. I was the idiot, the stupid person, the trash, the cheap bitch. I WAS ALL ALONG THE JOKER. i dont have the right to even say Y.Y is a failure a bitch, because i was the one here.

How foolish i was, i thought i'll get over him and i'll be generous and wish him luck and happiness with whoever he likes now. Then look what happen to me, hiding behind this screen, crying and broken HAHA, foolish arent i? who have i to blame but myself? I saw a simple relationship too importantly, when he just treated it as a game. Ya... I should really go reflect upon my intelligence. I'm probably the most idiotic person. SHAMELESS and STUPID.

** i would stop being careful when handling other's heart, because nobody cared when they trample and stabbed all over mine.**

**I'm giving up not because i've moved on, because i have nothing left for you to use, nothing left for you to play with**

**i can never forgive you because i loved you, when you didnt even care**

18 March 2013

Singapore

Perfect without you?

HELLO. It was such a long day today... Really all the way from morning till late at night. Oh well, cut the chase! Alright that's alot of photos, actually, not quite but... you shall see! :D okay, start of the day, i havent got into the mood so i didnt take photos but our school had this school walk where our ENTIRE school goes for a walk around the neighbourhood near our school. So well, i sweat quite alot but was really happy (: then, we actually had this carnival, organised by our respective Co curriculum activities group... I wasn't quite happy with the people who were put incharge of my co curriculum activity's booth so i didnt really got involve and shun as much as possible xD no need to elaborate... JUST when i thought my day was gonna be boring.. A few people made it superbly interesting <3

Hahahha, this way of illustrating my story.. okay anyway, SHEESHEE? remember this awesome friend of mine? and Boly? these two besties of mine? Yep, before every carnival thing started, I went for Brunch with these two... That's ^ what i ate... Nice right? although Boly and Sheeshee were a little awkward, but i guess it was bearable? and well i had fun  so who cares? thanks dears ^^ a good start already.

And oops... i guess i was a little picky and didnt eat the rather bitter veges...

Alright then me and Sheeshee went back to school, as for my dearest Boly, she was such a spoilsport but she's adorable anyways, she insisted to go home... Okay so once i reached school, i was attacked by my overenthusiastic BESTFRIEND/SISTER!!! :D she was asking me to go to a haunted house of the carnival with her, and since we always loved ourselves, my dearest Kong. and I...

We took photos of both our pretty faces xD (you should already know me well enough to know im rather shameless XP) SHE IS SO DAMN GORGEOUS RIGHT. just incase you're confused, the one in blue is meeeeeeeee and ofcourse the one on your right is the legendary Kong. . (notice the fullstop behind her name? Yes, i love this girl, this retard, like really) Anyway, it was already rather late into the afternoon so i was rather messed up and tired >< which explains my rather tired looking shot... BUT, notice my hair? Sheeshee helped me french braided my hair, thanksss xD i loved the hair as i also highlighted it slightly with pink and glitter. Ofcourse... there's a pic...

Cant really see the pink.. but well, that's ma umm nice hair?? :P

Okay, you all must be thinking... Weird for Cynthia not to mention SOME guys so far in her posts yet? Well, here comes. Haha, dear E.C was ofcourse at the carnival, and ofcourse i saw alot of him too. He had a special booth which represents his class instead of his co curriculum activity group... And, sorry dear, i'm rather broke today but the past few days ive helped enough and donated enough i hope? but he was rather happy to see me, smiling each time... i tried to or attempted to give him a hug until i realise our rather crowded surroundings and refrained from public display of affection... WHICH i HAVE to add disappointed my dear E.C quite alot! xD sorry again... But i showed my support for him otherwise alright...

E.C's classmates' performance at the carnival..

Might not be evident in the photo BUT, i sat under the blazing sun just to support his classmates singing performance! I'm serious, i was perspiring profusely.. So, be honored E.C... But i'll give them the credit, the performance was not bad at all! ;D So basically it was rather fun though i received some looks of astonishments as i was not really known to do a thing like sitting under the sun and risking MY APPEARANCE, for a performance xD Little did they know why... And they repeated their performance hours later, I sat through THAT too... be touched my dear! And umm W.Y (my ex just incase you forgot), was present at the second round sitting rather close to me. perhaps because he knew me very well from... experience or relationship... He was looking at me puzzled as to why was i sitted there, perspiring and uncomfortable, to listen to songs? he kept giving me side glances. W.Y, i saw them just incase you didnt know xD but i dont really care today! xD oh and what made my day even more perfect was that my biology teacher? she gave me such a tight hug that really made me feel so contented and happy i have her back.. (: imma a happy girl then... After that, my day obviously havent ended though i was rather exhausted already... Me and sheeshee had to meet Baby (another close friend just incase you all forgot) for a Barbeque Chalet immediately after we left school.

There's also a small story before we FINALLY reach the chalet. there were like obstacles before we were able to get to our chalet. Well, we  didnt know our way to the chalet and when we tried to contact our intructors who were incharge, they werent contactable! Trust me, i was so furious i cursed (oops xD) my beloved instructors... Sorry if i was being short tempered again... BUT i was already so exhausted and i had to leave the chalet early and YET, i couldnt reach the chalet as early as possible! but as you know the day ended well, the chalet did too, THANKFULLY.

We had fun and casually snapped a picture xD

I HAVE to add, sheeshee seldom take photos and she purposely took it in such a weird manner... So you could infer that we were really enjoying ourselves(: Then, due to my parents, we had to leave early... but i snapped the beautiful evening sky.

Not really good as i was in a rush xD

And then, my day STILL havent ended there. in fact, there was much more. but here's the summary as im rather tired of the event filled post. We had a belated birthday celebration for my dad, we ate a scrumptious meal.

Trying to make up their mind what to have for dinner :P

Settled on a rather classy restaurant, ThaiExpress.

All the food was great though we had a really hilarious waiter whom i think is a little muddleheaded. Overall, i think my dad rather enjoyed this meal? so it's good!! Birthday man's satisfied.That STILL wasnt all. My dad was a rather important figure of our family you see, so there HAD to be a gift or present that hit the "wow" factor. and here it is.

SEIKO branded watch on my dad's hand xD

Tada, the world is unfair and so he got a, i would say, not really cheap watch for a birthday gift. It was really over MY budget, but well, it IS my luck that he's my father and THATS what he wanted? So buy it i must, and pay, i must :P Happy Birthday Daddy :P hope youre happy to have dug a hole in my pocket? HAHAHAHAH, but i was still happy as remember me saying i exceeded my free outgoing calls limit of 100 minutes and was going to have to pay an exploded bill? Because he was very happy, he did not really press the matter and i got off the hook easily xD one thing good that has came outta the watch buying (; So, i was still a happy girl when i reached home! Until now, Im still extremely happy! OOPS. i just realised i forgot to reply E.C's message!!! i have to get to my dear!!! just end the post with a few photos of me happy self today xD all while waiting for the food to arrive...

Enlarged version hahaahhaha.

Well, not exactly me only. Hi birthday daddy. (:

**Letting go doesn't mean that you don't care about someone anymore. It's just realizing that the only person you really have control over is yourself.**

**Girls you've gotta know when it's time to turn the page.**

17 March 2013

Singapore

Many in one!!!

Today is a day with so many occasions. Firstly, it's white day (so says my friend shushu), which means one month after valentines... Then it is my father's birthday!!! Haiya although i say i dont like him, but he's still my daddy right... And the most irritating or upsetting occasion yet? exactly 6 months after me and W.Y broke... I guess he doesnt remember half a year ago, how this day was the end of the beautiful days we had, relationship we loved. But well, i bet he is so happy on this day... As for me, well, i dont know but i think he got himself involved with the girl i mentioned before... the YY girl, aiya, i dont care alright, anyway i just detest both of them... Okay i know im being a little negative here but well, seriously, YY told me she read my blogpost about her... She was frantically denying, Seriously girl, why bother? im a girl, you got the attention of this guy that USED to mean the world to me, i dont have great feelings for you, fullstop? why care to explain? it is not like you value our friendship anyway. I dont i can tell you, or at least not anymore. So hate me i dont care. Besides, you can have that umm ex of mine if you want, i will watch the hilarious situation. So anyway, enough of my ranting but heres a picture of my school field...

Today i had so much fun here with Boly <33333

Well, me and boly went crazy and ran around the field, then ran in zig zag manner until i was totally exhausted and as i ran i actually scream:" i hate you!!!" hahah then we vented our anger on fallen leaves as we tore them apart, more like i vented my anger as i was scolding and muttering all sorts of things while i ran, kicked and do all sorts of insane stuff but seriously let myself go. I was really happy to let it all out and it's all thanks to my dear boly <3 shankyew babe!! then i also had a heart to heart talk with her while lying on the grass facing the sky... how nice? Okay shhhhhh, although i almost cried... i was much better after letting everything go... thanks again there boly!!!

Smile bigbig dear, like meee xD

Oh how about yesterday because dear E.C is a little moody remember? in the end i sent him a photo of myself hahahaha, like i think seeing me would make him happy, how i thought highly of myself.. BUT wont it make you happy huh E.C? [;
Hahahaha i was just smiling like some idiot xD
Then today, like everyday in school, i enjoyed myself despite being moody and temperamental, contradicts but hahhaha i dont care XP. so ShuShu, my seatmate AND a great adorable awesome friend of mine was as cute as always!!! She was trying to stop this guy from my class, Yang, from eating in the classroom as shushu is a member of the Student Council Committee and it was her duty to do so... And trust me, she really treats her duty sooooooooo seriously! So humorous and Extremely bad Yang was trying to give shu ridiculous reasoning as to why he should be allowed to eat in class... LOOK!!!

And oops she caught me taking the picture!!

Hope she does not mind the rather funny shot hahahahah!!! Sorry shushu i had to post your adorable face!! I love you okay!!!

Looks rather cute doing the same thing ;P

Hahahahah so that was an example of some retarded things that happen in my class during break times. There was umm, a speial sort of raping too... Shall snap a photo or two next time and tell ya all more about it.. love my class by the way.. they are awesome people, MOST of them...

And then secretly *guilty face*, i forgot about my father's birthday the whole day at school because of my really not very good mood and the stressful last day of school before the march one week holidays, where i got REALLY busy... But my dad doesnt know. I soon remembered while i reached home thankfully!!! and i made him a rather simple card, but since he doesnt like fanciful things so i guess it is okay..

Tried my best to make it pretty okay.. My father prefers chinese so...

Happy birthday daddy! 

Bad art and well, Kong(best-est friend) thought me how to fold this...

Soo... Haahahahaha that's about it. My day so far.. it is only 7pm in the evening so im rather bored but oh well... Oh and picture of myself because i feel like it. And picture of YY, just to give you all an idea of how she looked like for those who dont know her...

That's her i took from her profile photo on whatsapp :P

And ofcourse the me who always love myself...

Okay so that's about it.. Byebye!!! im rather tired and this is my brother's computer i've been rather selfishly using for quite long HHAHAHAHA. Whatever my brother is nice to bully!!! <3

**Now a soft kiss - Aye, by that kiss, I vow an endless bliss** (yet to claim a kiss E.C -winks-)

14 March 2013

Singapore