Actually,
it’s a rather unexpected updating of my blog session here :P I am supposed to
be burying my head in books especially when exams is one day away. BUT WELL, I've been busy with exams for such a long time already, let me rest a little. So
question is, how’s life? For me, well… not bad but not good either. Ha ha, my title
is the editing of a sentence one of my teachers told me:
“Shit
happens, it gets better” that’s what SHE said. I see it a SLIGHTLY different
way, endurance ha ha My teacher, she’s miss. S, is too nice for words. Okay, I hope
she doesn't see this but I find her lessons superbly boring and useless. BUT,
it is NOT because she’s a bad teacher. Firstly, I NEVER listen in any lessons
and NEVER found lessons interesting. Secondly, the chapters our school gave her
to teach were the easy ones, hence, it seemed boring!! I really adore her
alright, don’t get me wrong, she’s rather aweshumme. Here’s a picture of her:
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| YUPS that's her and YES, she's mixed! OhMaiGawd I'M SO JEALOUS |
Yes so
this is what’s bad, SHE WOULD MOST PROBABLY BE LEAVING. Yes leaving our school.
Our school was just a test for her to see if she can join the ministry of
education as a teacher. WELL, WISH HER LUCK AND HEALTH <3 I somehow feel sad
as I say that, perhaps, perhaps she won’t leave?
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| this is what one of my friends sent me when i was feeling rather horrible a few days before (will tell you the story later) YEA, the problem is, they always come and go, i wish they never existed. |
So that’s
one thing, and of course I’m barely surviving the EXAMINATION PERIOD. Oh trust
me, it is horrible. Everyones jittery and ughr, I CANT SEEM TO GET ANYTHING IN
THAT BRAIN OF MINE. I can’t focus >< I could start thinking a lot in the
midst of studying, or start using my phone, OR EVEN START TAKING FUNNY PICTURES
OF MYSELF. (no worries, I’ll feed you with them shortly(; ) but before that, how about good side of things, as far as i can remember. SOMEHOW, i'm prepared and confident for the EXAMS. that's a plus man, everyone's worrying but i'm like: chill out man, it's gonna be easy. HAHA, perhaps i'm no longer sane. so and!!! E.C is back in my life! like how? uhh im not sure but stable friends. I AM THANKFUL OKAY. nope, if you're asking, what about W.Y? no, he's still not back, still not in my life, still painfully away. before i start the long list of vocab that describes my misery..
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| MEOWW~ hahaha, yes imma too kewt for words hehe xD i sound happy don't i? that's because i'm in one of those moods where there seem to be morphine and i don't feel the pains of life ^^ hope it stays throughout my blogposts. oh and look at those fingernails, was too busy to have it trimmed. OH WELL, it looks aweshumme. |
HAHA.
Okay, long story cut short. This day I went onboard a bus and suddenly felt
like sitting at the very back of the second deck (me and W.Y’s favorite on a
bus), so I made y way there and saw this:
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| 24 06 12 <3 if you don't recognize this date, it is actually me and W.Y's supposed to be anniversary. which is gonna reach in a month's time. 24 June 2012 was the best day, i wonder what would 24 June 2013 be? well, that's beside the point! this is what me a W.Y wrote almost a year ago on this bus, and gettit?! i just stumbled upon it. and guess what? whatever reaction my heart has, i'll leave to your imagination. Silly me cried on the spot on the bus. |
So
that’s another big thing. Hmm what else? OH YA, me and Boly had little
adventures here and there and here’s a few pwettaye pictures (:
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| BOLY'S BIRTHDAY. she FINALLY was willing to take ONE photo with me and apparently because it is unclear. our <3 was cropped off sadly ): |
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| On the Train, haha we were a crazy pair!! |
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| That's Boly's hand and my epic attempt to draw PATRICK on it :P |
Throughout all the sad,
crazy, maddening life experiences recently, Boly was there. Thank You hun, could’nt have managed so many smiles
without ya (‘: OH OH OH and one more thing! that is so very important! but difficult to explain, ANYWAYS, this is a SHHHHH. i'm just saying some weird feelings again xP
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| Shush okayyyy?? XD |
So umm
I try to cut short again. I started talking to W.Y’s ex and me and his ex, let’s
call her C.L. wow, unexpected, SHE IS DEFINITELY NICE. Well, I don’t know still
for sure, but she is definitely different from the image W.Y gave me of her! It
was not really nice and shhhh, I use to dislike her. W.Y, it is really a
mystery, your heart and brain that is, what are you thinking and feeling? Actually,
I know it whenever you lie to me, at least, many lies. I didn’t say anything, I
didn’t want you to feel upset that I know. Because, I believe you had a reason
to lie. Honestly W.Y, you don’t know half of what I think and feel all the
time. What you saw, the me you said was “always sad and jealous” at the end
of the relationship, was not even half what
I really was then. I was close to insanity. Kong. My bestfriend knows, Chow,
she knows too. I was selfish to let them worry, but I was not selfish enough to
show you.
OH
WELL, why am I suddenly talking to him? Haha ma apologies xD
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| Randomm photos but well, imma aweshumme. |
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| I rock this way. |
So
studying and sleeping at 2:am almost everyday recently has stopped me from
those… stuffs. Which was good haha, and bad! I’m so exhausted and speaking of
which, *yawns behind the screen*, my eyelids are like tons now :P so yes, it is
a goodbye till most probably after examinations. HAHA, look forward to it, it
will be filled with stories. Time check : 146 am. Oh god, that is so not early~
feed ya with photos so i dont need to focus, my eyes are half closed..
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| Haha amount of content needed to be absorbed for MID YEAR EXAMINATIONS |
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| Studying planner which i failed to follow and the exam time table... |
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| THE EXAM TIME TABLE! |
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| HI. |
And dear
W.Y, don’t forget to smile big, because if you’re happy, then perhaps letting
you go was the right choice even though I killed my heart. <a card i wrote for him please dont ask me what i write XD>
* i miss him fullstop, that's enough to make life a torture*
28 April 2013
