Experience

Life, it's all about experiences.

Yes? No?

Today I have one more to add to my never ending lists of peculiar experience.

I went for a volunteer work (yes, sometimes I'm a saint) today.

Then, it rained heavily, shit luck.

We (me with two guys flanking by my side), had no umbrella.

So we decided to cab.

Embarrassingly, none of us had cash with us.

I called my brother, and he's just as useless as can be OHMYGOSH I was so angry. He couldn't do a simple thing as transferring money so that I borrow it for the cab fare.

So yeah, one of the guys had to run to and fro under the rain to borrow money from our friend who has already reached the destination.

What i wore today, even though it's freezing.

Okay I think that's about it, because I'm distracted and tired.

My lovely cousins are back flooding my house with their mere presence again(:

I like that, I'm not being sarcastic, I love it they're here.

29 May 2014

Singapore

King Kong

I think if I'd spoken to you the past two days, you'd realized I've rewatched the best tragedy movie (to me at least) of all time!

Well if you hadn't pictured me as a fan of tragic endings, then welcome to knowing cynthia.

I am always up for a good cry. 

And that's exactly what I did when I watched "King Kong" all over again. I cried, and my heart actually ached so much.

Because I knew "King Kong" was gonna die despite being such a lovely animal.

Look at him when he's upset.

Sad and angry.

Why? Why did he have to die? 

They said "the beauty killed the beast"

It's just humanity. It's just what we are right?

We're monsters, more of one than King Kong itself.

You all must be thinking :

SHE MUST BE LOSING IT.

It's just a movie, I know.

But don't you see it? Don't you see that only animals are capable of giving this unconditional and pure love?

For those who'd actually asked me before what do I actually look for in a guy, THIS.

If you could actually protect me but at the same time controlling and leading me, then you're it.

But you know what? I've given up looking in this god damn hopeless world.

Or at least I have found one but he changed. (They always do don't they? Those guys?)

I can't believe this, after replaying the scenes of KING KONG in my brain I'm actually about to cry again.

If you were that big, you were that ugly, you were that intimidating and despite that, you were that gentle, then perhaps I couldn't care less if you were the perfect boyfriend material, because I know I would've chosen you.

Okay I'll stop. XD

Anyway, it's right before school right now and because I've decided to wake up really early, I'm sitting in the kitchen with nothing better to do but blog.

Goodbye, be back real soon!

23 May 2014

Singapore

Human rights

Sometimes it puzzles me as to why I'm complaining about the freedom I get. 

Some people from the farthest corner of my imagination around this very world I'm living in takes a whole new perspective to the word freedom.

It's so much different than getting to go out with your friends, then allowing you to hang out with people you prefer, or even dating the guys you like.

The idea of freedom in some places seem to have nothing at all to do with our idea of it.

 

For those who haven't seen this before (I assume majority of you), tell me what do you think this is?

Little bridesmaid with grooms?

Very adorable young little girls yea?

Well let me tell you this is no sweet, pretty or cute wedding.

Nothing like that.

Because these girls up there, they're to be married to exactly the men that are holding on to their hands.

Trust me, I will so not judge this.

This is so not disgusting.

So not at all.

At certain countries, certain places, women or people have their basic rights stolen and snatched away from them since birth.

Fair or not, it doesn't matter.

It happens and the people there could only hope ignorance upon themselves, could only wish they were oblivious to the liberty people get outside of their place so that it'll be easier.

Which brings me back to my original issue. Are we still complaining about the freedom we get?

But yes, I am still.

Because I can.

I'm well aware of some people who have gotten a more difficult life then I have. Nonetheless, my take on this is that we should never be contented. We should acknowledge that we are fortunate, but we should never be contented.

Thankful yes but never contented.

Enough said, photos now.

Baked rice because I pretended to not be on a diet for one day.

And because Boly could be persuasive any day, every day.

Show Luo's concert:

Don't even get me started on this.

I never thought an artiste could win me over in just one night.

I'm a believer (of him) xD

You've gotta see it to believe it,they say.

And so it's true, he's not all about looks.

Although we know the looks would play a part (VERY BIG PART), in the winning me over thing. :P

Boly decided to have an "exception day", since we were going to see HER idol.

So she's finally willing to show her face to the camera.

Ofcourse I had to abuse that opportunity she gave and take a lot of photos with her.

But Boly if you're reading this, rest assured, your UNGLAMS are safe with me.

Well if you HAD notice, you haven't seen wrongly, I HAVE make up on.

But it was just make up done by:

Urban Beauty Academy

They had this activity for some trainees (I guess...?) and I was the model for them.

Ya that's about it but THICK MAKEUP won't do for me.

My opinion is that I look like Drac queen but I like it actually.

No idea why, but yes I do.

That's at the our seat waiting for the concert to commence.

(At that hand is obviously not mine.)

I don't really think we're allowed to take photos of the concert so I won't provide any (your loss) (:

Well till later, in the June holidays.

I'm looking forward to it, are you?

18 May 2014

Singapore

that feeling from within, the deepest pools of within

Maybe I had finally grown accustomed to it.

Maybe, I had mustered how to face them, and their wrath.

Maybe it'll be like this,

A few silent tears and it'll pass

"I'll do well and leave them, I'll do so well I'd take off so fast" yep, that's the mantra.

Oh and maybe, maybe I got 7/80 for an exam for a reason besides laziness, for an entirely different reason.

I'd seen their faces, those people whom id cared about, who had expected more than the crushing disappointment. Maybe the disappointment weren't meant for them, maybe never was it meant for them.

Oh and maybe I've finally managed to muster this genuine smile, that crept right through the usual facade because this time, it's not gonna be the same.

I'm gonna reek perfect, I'm gonna be so filthy perfect, you're gonna hate it. Because I'm gonna be that perfect kid, you've always dreamed of. I'll haunt your dreams.

My dear Mr and mrs Tan, you would never expect that I, would be so perfect that it'll bother you.

That your own daughter'll be the nightmare you would never have dreamt of.

Oh the irony.