Tomorrow is the last chance

Hey.

My mood is really bad.

So if you do not wish to hear one of my worst rants, please leave.

I'm really tired.

It really requires a lot, this lesson that seems so determined to bring me down.

I am trying the best I could.

I've went all over Singapore to appeal for every possible chance.

I haven't heard from any of them.

Possibly because I haven't chosen them in the first place. (At all)

I've faced all the skeptical looks when I try my best to appeal.

I've faced the silence; there's no news that gives me a chance to let of the sigh of relief.

I've went through miles alone.

My boyfriend is living my dream in a good school beginning his new life.

I don't know about humility.

Maybe it maximizes in love.

Because all I could think about is how far apart are our paces in life.

How even love cannot bring our footsteps together again.

He's up there.

And I am too much down below.

I'm really sorry dear. 

Perhaps I'm saying sorry just because I'm so miserable.

I'm slowly going insane.

But it's good for you.

I'm sorry I have to cut you off in all ways.

I'm sorry I blocked you off all contactable routes.

Trust me this hurts more that I can imagine.

It really really is torture.

I miss you.

But I shouldn't be.

I'm in despair.

I'm just one step away from the ruins.

I don't want you drowning with me. 

Remember me as someone beautiful and smart please (:

3 January 2015

Singapore