They brought back the smiles

Hello dearies!

Today is the best day since forever.

I got the loveliest of gifts (although it's teacher's day, and I'm not a teacher), and this gift, brought back the smiles, the laughter I've lost since September 14 last year, since I've lost him.

I thought I would never feel this way again, this lighthearted and carefree.

The joy that's really radiated from my heart and throughout my whole being.

I thought I'll never feel my face muscle ache from smiles and laughter again.

Not all of them, but yes, these people came as a gift, angels perhaps? Sent from heaven to bring back the Cynthia who was drowning under the darkness of emotionless days, who felt so lost she thought she'll never resurface and see the light again.

I was wrong though. Really really wrong. Because these people proved that I was capable of laughing till my sides hurt, capable of smiling from my heart again.

MEIMEI <3

NATNAT <3

MAIMAI <3

PAOPAO <3

NADNAD <3

I have no idea, why all of their "blog nicknames" I create for them are double similar names ( or whatever). I just feel so much love for them because why?

I laughed and forgot the world for so many hours today, it felt as if there was never this long and dark period of time I felt like every living second was a torture.

As if.

BUT STILL, I really did enjoy myself today so much I could find no reason for the tears to flow except for the laughter.

Thank you guise, thank you so much for bringing me back, for once again, being the one that introduce joy into my life.

My pretty face to thank you. ( just joking, or maybe...?)

And also, we played and went crazy and wild.

My friend she told me:

"I've missed you Cynthia. I have never laughed like today for such a long time. I will miss you Cynthia" <identify yourself the person who said this>

You have no idea, I was near tears.

Because it was a long time since anyone ever told me that sincerely, that I would be missed. I forgot the feeling of being cared for, of being happily and blissfully loved.

I really didn't know there was love for me that still existed.

Thank you people, I really really love you all so much I have no idea how to express it in words.

I'm sorry I didn't tell all of you my troubles, but no point being a party pooper right?

5 September 2013

Singapore