Baby

Hey!

My apologies for being emotional; gosh, what has gotten into me.

I'm becoming someone I actually despise the most.

Talks about killing myself D:

I'm ashamed.

Cythia, if you dared, you would've done so.

Why go to your blog and be a pathetic good-for-nothing?

Well yeah. I know I shouldn't have but I guess the blog's a place to vent my anger.

To show how much I hate my parents maybe?

Life has been difficult for me as I've found it more and more difficult to accept my parents.

I really hate them, the hatred is so strong I'm so tired of it.

All I want is to able to enjoy myself freely, and let myself go after a long and tiring year.

I can never do that.

Right now I'm working at an insurance firm.

The job is boring and I feel like I'm wasting this precious post exam times.

But this is the best I can spend my time; since my parents wouldn't even allow anything else besides work.

Ofcourse, sometimes I get to feel so loved, so doted on, when I get to spend some meagre amount of time with him.

I feel happy I have him with me.

I'm really thankful.

I've loved before and it was painful.

I've hated before and it was also very tiring and painful.

I've hurt and been hurt.

But I've never been more thankful for anyone.

Honestly would never have thought I'm a person to be thankful for people I meet, or people I have in my life.

But I'm truly thankful for him. Thankful that he is mine now.

I truly do not know what the future holds, or whether the forever we promise each other would actually happen.

Or is it just a beautiful wish that would end up as a painful sigh?

Whichever, I would cherish whatever time I have with him.

I would cherish him. 

I will hold him back if he wanna leave.

I will keep every word he utters in my mind.

I will hold memories of him close to my heart.

If there ever is a forever for me,let it be him.

Guys, I love my life now and I'm too much in love to let it go(:

28 November 2014

Singapore