Shit happens, Life goes on.

Actually, it’s a rather unexpected updating of my blog session here :P I am supposed to be burying my head in books especially when exams is one day away. BUT WELL, I've been busy with exams for such a long time already, let me rest a little. So question is, how’s life? For me, well… not bad but not good either. Ha ha, my title is the editing of a sentence one of my teachers told me:

“Shit happens, it gets better” that’s what SHE said. I see it a SLIGHTLY different way, endurance ha ha  My teacher, she’s miss. S, is too nice for words. Okay, I hope she doesn't see this but I find her lessons superbly boring and useless. BUT, it is NOT because she’s a bad teacher. Firstly, I NEVER listen in any lessons and NEVER found lessons interesting. Secondly, the chapters our school gave her to teach were the easy ones, hence, it seemed boring!! I really adore her alright, don’t get me wrong, she’s rather aweshumme. Here’s a picture of her:

YUPS that's her and YES, she's mixed! OhMaiGawd I'M SO JEALOUS

Yes so this is what’s bad, SHE WOULD MOST PROBABLY BE LEAVING. Yes leaving our school. Our school was just a test for her to see if she can join the ministry of education as a teacher. WELL, WISH HER LUCK AND HEALTH <3 I somehow feel sad as I say that, perhaps, perhaps she won’t leave?

this is what one of my friends sent me when i was feeling rather horrible a few days before (will tell you the story later) YEA, the problem is, they always come and go, i wish they never existed.

So that’s one thing, and of course I’m barely surviving the EXAMINATION PERIOD. Oh trust me, it is horrible. Everyones jittery and ughr, I CANT SEEM TO GET ANYTHING IN THAT BRAIN OF MINE. I can’t focus >< I could start thinking a lot in the midst of studying, or start using my phone, OR EVEN START TAKING FUNNY PICTURES OF MYSELF. (no worries, I’ll feed you with them shortly(; ) but before that, how about good side of things, as far as i can remember. SOMEHOW, i'm prepared and confident for the EXAMS. that's a plus man, everyone's worrying but i'm like: chill out man, it's gonna be easy. HAHA, perhaps i'm no longer sane. so and!!! E.C is back in my life! like how? uhh im not sure but stable friends. I AM THANKFUL OKAY. nope, if you're asking, what about W.Y? no, he's still not back, still not in my life, still painfully away. before i start the long list of vocab that describes my misery..

MEOWW~ hahaha, yes imma too kewt for words hehe xD i sound happy don't i? that's because i'm in one of those moods where there seem to be morphine and i don't feel the pains of life ^^ hope it stays throughout my blogposts. oh and look at those fingernails, was too busy to have it trimmed. OH WELL, it looks aweshumme.

HAHA. Okay, long story cut short. This day I went onboard a bus and suddenly felt like sitting at the very back of the second deck (me and W.Y’s favorite on a bus), so I made y way there and saw this:

24 06 12 <3 if you don't recognize this date, it is actually me and W.Y's supposed to be anniversary. which is gonna reach in a month's time. 24 June 2012 was the best day, i wonder what would 24 June 2013 be? well, that's beside the point! this is what me a W.Y wrote almost a year ago on this bus, and gettit?! i just stumbled upon it. and guess what? whatever reaction my heart has, i'll leave to your imagination. Silly me cried on the spot on the bus.

So that’s another big thing. Hmm what else? OH YA, me and Boly had little adventures here and there and here’s a few pwettaye pictures (:

BOLY'S BIRTHDAY. she FINALLY was willing to take ONE photo with me and apparently because it is unclear. our <3 was cropped off sadly ): 

On the Train, haha we were a crazy pair!!

That's Boly's hand and my epic attempt to draw PATRICK on it :P

Throughout all the sad, crazy, maddening life experiences recently, Boly was there. Thank  You hun, could’nt have managed so many smiles without ya (‘: OH OH OH and one more thing! that is so very important! but difficult to explain, ANYWAYS, this is a SHHHHH. i'm just saying some weird feelings again xP

Shush okayyyy?? XD

So umm I try to cut short again. I started talking to W.Y’s ex and me and his ex, let’s call her C.L. wow, unexpected, SHE IS DEFINITELY NICE. Well, I don’t know still for sure, but she is definitely different from the image W.Y gave me of her! It was not really nice and shhhh, I use to dislike her. W.Y, it is really a mystery, your heart and brain that is, what are you thinking and feeling? Actually, I know it whenever you lie to me, at least, many lies. I didn’t say anything, I didn’t want you to feel upset that I know. Because, I believe you had a reason to lie. Honestly W.Y, you don’t know half of what I think and feel all the time. What you saw, the me you said was “always sad and jealous” at the end of  the relationship, was not even half what I really was then. I was close to insanity. Kong. My bestfriend knows, Chow, she knows too. I was selfish to let them worry, but I was not selfish enough to show you.

OH WELL, why am I suddenly talking to him? Haha ma apologies xD

Randomm photos but well, imma aweshumme.

I rock this way.

So studying and sleeping at 2:am almost everyday recently has stopped me from those… stuffs. Which was good haha, and bad! I’m so exhausted and speaking of which, *yawns behind the screen*, my eyelids are like tons now :P so yes, it is a goodbye till most probably after examinations. HAHA, look forward to it, it will be filled with stories. Time check : 146 am. Oh god, that is so not early~ 

feed ya with photos so i dont need to focus, my eyes are half closed..

Haha amount of content needed to be absorbed for MID YEAR EXAMINATIONS

Studying planner which i failed to follow and the exam time table...

THE EXAM TIME TABLE!

HI.

And dear W.Y, don’t forget to smile big, because if you’re happy, then perhaps letting you go was the right choice even though I killed my heart. <a card i wrote for him please dont ask me what i write XD>

* i miss him fullstop, that's enough to make life a torture*

28 April 2013

Singapore