A little closer

Hello people. I spent the whole day out today with the debaters. It was a great day, seeing  that i had a great time with one of the China scholars (: we talked about so many things. so manymanymanymanymany. I finally got another teeny little question of mine answered, duh, obviously W.Y. haha over the misery for him, but never over those memories, those are what i can't choose, ain't it?

so that's her and meh :P

"how is he doing?"

i feel so touched, with many feelings rushing throughout my entire being.

he's been very good, very funny, very cute.

i actually feel like i entered his life once again, this time, as a spectator.

"he is such a funny person, SICK and DISGUSTING" so says my debater friend who told me all about him and what he does in class.

Ya, still as dumb, still as sick in the mind, still as proud of himself.

Just one small difference, not mine. ^^ for the first time, it's alright. it really is, despite the tears welling up in my eyes as i laughed and smile at every of his antics again, from his classmate instead of him, i was genuinely happy he's doing well without me.

Let's call her F.Y. (my debater friend AKA W.Y's classmate). F.Y treated me to a restaurant Astons' , where we spoke about life.

My dinner <3

We spoke about so many things. HEY, we don't always speak about W.Y only okay. Anyway, i was near tears so many times today, not really sad. Perhaps, regret and some unhealed wounds.

random photos.

the above is one activity that i did during the June holidays. Yes, i had a great june holiday, but it'll never beat last year's. Anyway, the above is "prawning place". you know "fishing"? ya, i did "prawning" because i'm too cool for fishing (8

Activities i did again. I guess ever since W.Y, i started to take many pictures.  snips and snaps of my life. Possibly because i'm too afraid, that probably i'll lose faster than my heart and mind could register. I could use the pictures to recover from shock. Then, adapt.

I'm an expert in this field-adaptation.

{ speaks crap, please bear with me}

Side note: the picture on the shapes, ugly ones, is where i did Community service at the nursing home for the old. I drew those lame shapes for them to cut. :P

Anyway let's get back to being emotional. HAHA. DID YOU ALL THINK : "AGAIN" ?

Ya la, i just touch on it briefly.

so yea, me and F.Y talked about my parents too. i explained how much i resent them. you know, because me and W.Y drifted apart because of them.

Long story cut short, their control over me after they found out about US, disallowed us to communicate in any form. Thus, we drifted apart, leading to the devastation of my life. (Drama queen is me)

Tears.

"I'm okay with my parents taking away anything from me. Since young they have taken almost everything i liked. but, no, i can't forgive them this time."

They took him away.

Tears flow.

Those who don't read Chinese, let me translate:

Hiccups & burps

The definition of love is where, through constant hiccups, daily burps, two people grow old together, become ugly together, and also become more free and easy, more happy alongside each other.

what i wanted so much and what seemed like a possible future, blissful future.

It's a beautiful night,

we're looking for something dumb to do.

Hey baby,

I Think I Wanna Marry You.

 **That's what i wanted, what they took away**

#quotes from Bruno Mars, Marry You

13 July 2012

Singapore