remains are things i cannot release.

Today will be remembered; Perhaps not the date, but the happenings. YUP, debate today!! ^^ went absolutely well <3 like duh, it's Cynthia you're talking about! ( today's great and i'm happy, sort of.) a short dialogue of debate today.

opponent: my dear opponent, you're being to optimistic...

me: (explains that my point is valid)

opponent: my dear opponent,like i said, you're being such an optimist, this is (bla bla bla)

me: *stands up, smiles sweetly* my dear opponent, why are you so pessimistic?

HAHA. i know i have swag. oh andandand!! main point is, there's a bird who flew into the room which i debated in, and the room had all windows closed! only one open but it had no idea how to fly back outside. knocked it's head straight on the wall and laid dejected, hopeless on the floor after that. (don't ask me how i know it's feelings) everyone : " CALL SPCA", "ANYONE HELP" me: *walks to the bird, cup my hand around it, lifts it* AND GUESS WHAT HAPPENED? THE BIRD STOOD ON MY HAND, IT DIDN'T FLY, IT JUST STOOD THERE OMAIGAWD CUTEST THING EVER. so i carried it outta the room and it did not fly away from my hand.... so i was about to throw it down the building so that it knows it should fly, but i was worried about like " what if it lost the ability to flyyyy" so i toss it lightly ON THE SAME LEVEL (not down the building). IT ACTUALLY FLAPPED its wings on my hand and flew from IT. i don't know why, i was super happy after that.

<3

so after that i skipped all over the place. who cares about the fucking image when i'm happy? i'm cute anyway.

To prove my point :P ( i can't even stand myself)

feeling talkative so, bear with me. spoke a lot to W.Y's friends, because you know, almost my whole debate team members are his classmates, what even... but learnt things like, i was the "unspoken threat" or whatever you put it, in his class. anyone spoke of me, he'll get really angry. wonder why?

sometimes, i wish i could forget for just that while...

Yes, i may have let go of him, but in my mind, deep down, some things lay forever.

" does he still think of me sometimes?"

" why does he mind so much at the mention of me?"

" does he keep that puzzle i gave him for his birthday? my badge he took? everything that has our memories?"

I have no idea why, but tears threaten to flow, right at this moment when i type this. 

i kept a piece of the puzzle-message i gave him.

inside that missing piece lay the unspoken words,

so sweet as i meant every word of it,

the dream that'll never come true,

the plans we'll never fulfill.

i watch upon you smile,

i watch upon you leave,

and i stay back in this facade,

giving my last  blessing.

In hope that maybe one day,

the scar will become pretty,

the sun will wake at the west,

and i'll smile at your bliss.

yes, he left trom the grasps i hold him in, but somewhere everyone actually knows, he still lies in me.

since last year at this moment of time, i made the happiest moments of my life.

I can be happy, i showed it, i proved it too. without him, i can be happy. i am in fact.

debate friend said that:

"there's always someone you'll never forget"

so now through tears that unknowingly flowed, i smile that smile that i know everybody likes, because i'm an arrogant woman aren't i?

i'm not tired, i will go on.

inside the missing piece of puzzle are these words:

to wake in your arms everyday.

6 July 2013

Singapore