Reaching for the stars

Basically, Hi.

guess i'm addicted to blogging like i'm addicted to McSpicy.

yes, i'm addicted to McSpicy (gonna go fat very soon). last night i blogged, now i'm blogging again.

Am i very free? nope. but gonna pretend i am anyways. I'm at my mom's working place.

 My mom says Hi.

She is sulking, i don't know why. but can you see? i'm not actually very happy myself.

Because i feel like some dumbass, frantically grasping for stars, never once not realizing I'm unable to reach, only to catch hold of nothingness.

Someone sent me a message recently, with these exact words:

" My future is bleak"

what's wrong? because i realize i see no bright future although perhaps i am smart.

Then again, everyone asks me: what do i not have?

I don't have the brains? i don't have the looks? i don't have the money?

Now i really don't know why am i ranting here, why even am i feeling so down.

I have got red eyes. that's what i have.

no it's actually brown. ugh, whutever.

YESSSS, i know what i don't have, I don't look like a cat. ):

I wanna look like a cat. Cats are aweshumme. Although i am too :P

#justsaying

anyway darlings and dearies, i'm so sad because i secretly, silently, and quietly gained 2Kg.

?!?!?!?!?! i know right.

this is horrible. SO I"M GONNA NEED THE 2.4Km run this coming Monday. I'm gonna burn off some fats.

Cutiepie is me. i mean i am cute.

haha thanks, i know i know. Am i talking to myself? yes.

and my mom just pissed me off. 

I wish to slap her so much, my hands are itching.

ONE FINE DAY, i will rip that tongue outta her, she needs to learn how to shut up.

Fuck the hell away man. (pardon my use of pretty words)

As always, i'm obsessed with myself. it's a good thing you know, than obsessed with someone else. *hints*

because girls, you may wanna just take my advice. Don't fall, your heart will get ripped out.

Permanently.

Anyway what am i doing? i'm supposed to be studying.

But no, my mom had to give me a hard time, to remind me i was supposed to be doing something.

something like, Reach for the stars.

Ya. All my heart is nothing now.

why mommy, do you always leave me to these thoughts?

when that day comes, i might just have given up, trying.

Are the stars really.... reachable?.

Yep, it was my fault i gave up. How long do i need to pay for that mistake?

i think i know the answer. The one i wanted WITH you, but now it's me only.

Forever.

The word tastes bad even, right now.

I don't think that's all i have to say. because i am still thinking of my crush.

yes, great change of subject. HEHE, well i wonder what is he doing? (;

boly, don't tell anyone okay... don't let them know what is all this crap about. ( i know you won't tell)

#ihavenothingtodo

** i realize you're always there, never gone.

27 July 2013

Singapore