I'm leaving.

I can feel it you know.

i can feel that i wont be able to take it anymore.

since so, i have nothing to care about.

i'm actually a loner inside.

you know, i laugh at everyone for being a loner, but i'm just trying to make it up for myself.

because everyone just doesn't like me.

i don't fit in.

i suck.

i'm a loser.

i suck academically, i cant make it.

i suck with people, everyone find me trying to hard to fit in.

i'm ugly, i'm facimg it.

when i'm gone, nobody will miss me.

you know why did i become so emotional the other time?

because i felt that you were leaving me.

you really did and the pain is not what i expect, it hurts a million times, no, it just hurts alot.

i don't care about no dignity.

i hate it, i hate everything now because everyone doesn't like me.

i give up trying to fit in.

i feel so ashamed.

i feel so tired i wanna hide and disappear.

you made everything okay you know.

but i KNOW you won't come back.

i don't see a point in living anymore.

will one really feel no sadness when they leave?

if yes, i think i'll take that.

i can't do this anymore.

i am useless.

20 August 2013

Singapore