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" i'm a paradox. i want to be happy, but i think of things that makes me sad. I'm lazy, yet i'm ambitious. i don't like myself, but i love who i am. i say i don't care, but i really do. i crave attention but i reject it when it really comes my way. i'm a conflicted contradiction.

Replacement or real feelings?

Umm, these few days have been very good. like the weekends have been wonderful <3 All thanks to someone... He said he would make me forget about the sadness and misery DEAR. brought to me, let me tell you, he succeeded. I have been smiling, despite still having DEAR. in my mind, i felt happy. Like seriously happy. Umm call this guy E.C. I don't know how do i put it. We text almost every minute of the day, we spent days together and i actually had like real sweet and happy talks with him over the phone. Oh and we shared manymanymanys secrets with each other. I dont know why but me and him are very frank with each other about everything. We talked and get along real well. Okay... this may sound weird but, he actually likes another girl and told me... he likes her very much... BUT, he definitely have feelings for me, what kind of feelings im not sure>< for me, i dont really know if i want to treat him as a replacement to get over the previous relationship, or i really like him and have feelings for him? How? It's like, do i like someone that likes another girl? Should i? But if E.C, you ever see this, i really just feel you should not hold on to a girl like her who actually played with your feelings for her. Shes also not like very pretty... sorry but im serious? Oh and thank you for appearing. It makes me feel i actually have hope of letting go <3 But i swear i will try my best not to hurt you :/ i promise kay? HAHAHHAHAHAH, i am feeling abit weird now... Like i dont know what i am feeling... Some of you can tell me maybe? Oh ya, and with him was the first time i actually kissed someone over the phone. It was so sweet like he practically begged me to kiss him hhahahaah <3 he's cute... And because i was too happy talking to him over the phone, i actually  forgot about my limited free outgoing call time and exceeded the 100 minutes limit! i called him for 2hrs 20 mins after he called me for 3 hrs!! we called till 3.30 am... so whats our relationship????
For DEAR. ... maybe i'll stop waiting...



For E.C... maybe you should let go and find someone better than her <3 

3 March 2013
Singapore

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