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" i'm a paradox. i want to be happy, but i think of things that makes me sad. I'm lazy, yet i'm ambitious. i don't like myself, but i love who i am. i say i don't care, but i really do. i crave attention but i reject it when it really comes my way. i'm a conflicted contradiction.

Special Bliss.

Herrow people! Can see that i started on such a light tone that imma a happy girl today. AS for why, i have almost no idea... hmm almost (: Basically, i started today great, like i had the feeling of being a boss. Like you know you step into a junior class and everyone stops talking intsantly and you're like cool and confident :" so (a junior's name) is in your class?" And the poor little junior answers you timidly. All eyes on you when you walk down the class #likeaboss. That feeling is awesome. There's this careless junior of mine that misplaced her phone and ofcourse i found it! So i was in her class... And then i heard one of the juniors ask her,:" how did you know her(me)?" Like as if she just known a god :P Sorry, im feeling quite good about myself then. IT WAS LIKE A BIG DEAL THAT ME, A SENIOR ACTUALLY WENT INTO THEIR CLASS. so yea, the morning made me so happy. Look at the pretty photo i took of the phone under my light, look so much like a moon in the phone rightt! ^
Life as a senior( seconday three) is great afterall! :D
And of course, i have to ruin this blogpost by mentioning HIM. (actually it is not ruining to me but oh well) i guess i just saw him very happy today, like even after he saw me soooo many times i heard his laughter (which i havent heard for a long long time), which means he didnt find me somebody that spoils his day!(i thought he hated the sight of me:/) And so i smiled along when he laughed and i think my friends find me crazy but i dont care! im happy because he's happy!
Oh and afterschool i had a looooong stroll home with one of my great friends(as usual no names mentioned), and we were talking about our exes and our relationships and dates and blablabla... Then i had fun talking about HIM like i had so much to share, and my friend finds my relationship with HIM cute <3 I was like i know it is cute, we were perfect together heh ><
And so i realise that actually loving someone and not having them to love you back, but still loving them with all your heart, can be rather sweet. Because im doing it for HIM. I think im speaking alot of crap but you know what, i just feel chatty now!
<=== can see i was feeling rather good about myself and camwhored in my school uniform! oh and that messy hair :P


**The only real treasure is in your head. Memories are better than diamonds and nobody can steal them from you**

5th February 2013
Singapore
Hope you didnt take it back? <3

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