Simple Joy...

Him trying to draw for me <3

WOW. curse broken, i'm happy for 2 days straight!! YAYY.. HAHAHA. well today past by quickly, like TADA, it's the night. Okay, today didn't really start well... Same old problem, Parents. Omaigod man, like seriously, I really am fed up by them. Just because we(me and my brother) took a little more time to get outta the house, they had to make a mountain out of a molehill and make such a to the wash long and big fuss out of it! My mom is really such a joke, she asked me why my brother woke up earlier than me and was walking to the washroom first but yet i was using the toilet first. So i told her that when i woke up, my brother was sitting on his bed and not even near the toilet then you know what my IDIOTIC MOTHER SAID? she say: "Why are you telling me all these?! You are speaking crap!" Then i kept quiet, because at that moment my suspicion was confirmed, my mother is insane. I MEAN, WHO'S THE ONE SPEAKING CRAP. But fortunately, the whole matter only lasted for half an hour. Trust me, that's short compared to other times. Anyway, we had a rather uncomfortable brunch but oh well, it passed too. Then,we went home and prepared for our one last visiting for new year- my mom's mother's house. Granny's house la! i wore black dress and heels, haha, like going wedding. Anyway, my time at my Granny's house was the main point of my story, the highlight of my day. Okay so let's introduce ya all to maternal side cousin! I dont know what's his name because he did not tell me clearly (:<

he refused to stay still!!!! i'm lucky i even got a shot :P

Umm so okay that's super naughty him. Like really, he is damn fun to play with. And hahahahahahah, he loves me!!! When i say he loves me, I MEAN IT OKAY. like okay this is what my mom wanted to pass a red packet to him, he refused to take it and hid behind his father (my uncle), but when i took over the red packet, HAHAHAHHAHAH, he came out from behind and dragged me away taking the red packet! I KNOW I AM AWESOME. Then right,he wanted me to play with him for like forever, and ya it was super tiring. He ran here and there, had things flying here and there. But trust me all was worth it. Because, i think he has this weird thing about not liking people to carry him and although he was damn close to me already, he refused to let me carry him for hours of persuasion. Until finally, i tried again, he allowed! i carried him to the living room and he actually scream: " JIEJIE I LOVE YOU" Trust me, i was so shocked i stopped walking and the whole family just stared at him and he was just hugging me at my neck. All i managed was a whisper:" what did he say?" And then his father is like:" wow, where did he learn that from?" and i was just stun for a few minutes before i kissed him on the cheek and said it back to him, AND GUESS WHAT? he actually hugged me real hard like some adult! I was just so touched. okay maybe you all dont understand why i feel and react this way, but having this kid, like having innocent him, just pure and simply said those three words to me, really means alot. And it also reminded me of something, something i did not want to face and tried my best to avoid.

This is a confession to ya all that i never told anyone (not that i remember of).DEAR. and I, although we had a really great short lived relationship, never said those three words to each other verbally before. He never told me, i dont know why. I did hint for him to like say it, but somehow, he did not. It really made me doubt that he really ever cared. Though many of his actions convinced me he did, but i was still in doubt. Until now, although i tried to convince myself texting and verbally don't really make a difference, but it was still a regret, because when he didnt tell me, i did not too. But, i really wanted to tell him, it just feels like something left undone. I want to now... but i wont get a chance anymore.Dear, I screenshot many times where you texted me those three words, those are one of the most precious memories. Do you know how just seeing those words from you made me happy? I guess i wont see them again...

But hearing it sincerely from a young child, really made me happy. That was love, from the heart of a young and innocent being. Sooooo, i was happy! like really happy. Then, when i had to leave, he didnt make a huge fuss like i expected, he just hugged me tightly then said bye and went to the window to stare out of it. LIKE AN ADULT RIGHT. So i just went home feeling a little sad but yet happy. How do i put it? I just loved that time with my small little cousin.

When i reached home, i buried myself in Biology, since i had a test tomorrow. Ya i finished as there wasn't much, or i should say, hehehehe, i was lazy and didnt really complete studying but i would do it somehow la! But i tried my best to draw a preddy diagram okay! I hated to draw diagrams so this is my best! please do not criticize!!!

Plant cell vs. Animal Cell

And ya, today is the last day of Lunar New Year. HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE.

I dont know if I'll get a chance to say it to you ever, i dont know how long it takes for me to ever be able to say it to another guy, but if you ever read this... know that... I Love You.

**Things may not have worked out for us, but i'll be waiting for the day it does.**

24 February 2013

Singapore